Damn it man... i think i push myself to the limit already.... and now i feeling my body already breaking down bit by bit without i knowing for the pass months... now i can feel that i'm really going to break down anytime and anywhere... without warning....O My...i think i really need to have a break-out time... get away from the things that i'm doing now and really go relax myself for sometime...to cool down...from over stress maybe haha...

what have happen to me can anyone tell me PLEASE...!!! i feeling really Fuck-tub and i'm like a thorn of hate to people lol... maybe not la... but i feel lifeless and soulless...Man what really happen to me...isit really that i need to have some bonding with more people around me or i need to take a knife and stab myself in the heart...and will i feel pain or nothing...my guess is that i will feel nothing...waaa.... when i become so inactive and dull till like this...kao it can't really is me lol... that not me at all... WHY TELL ME WHY....!!!WHY I GOT THOSE STUPID FEELING THAT NEVER REALLY GOT INTO ME MUCH AND NOW ALL COME BACK ALL AT ONCE...!!!
               TO ANYBODY READING, I NEED IDEA OR ANYTHING THAT CAN HELP ME OUT GIVE ME AND SUGGESTION TO ME PLEASE...!!!